Friday, 1 August 2008

Why insist?

Why indeed. Perhaps, I'm just trying to leave a mark somewhere. To show that I exist somewhere along the line. To prove that I can affect someone perhaps..?
Why...am I trying?

Sometimes, I just think I'm over melodramatic. And I do think I am.


Coffee and tea...
The both are bitter. But of a different sort. Coffee has a heavy tantalising scent. The bitterness in black coffee is plain hard. The bitterness in chinese tea goes on perhaps levels, and seems more...fluid.

But I prefer the bitterness found in the coffee over the tea. Sometimes, I like to think that reflects a little on who I am, and what I want.

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I made a promise to myself today. No matter the cost to my personal life, I want to go through it. I must not fail, no matter how painful or... I cannot forget this promise. On 1st August '08, I realised, that perhaps, that was my "dream" to aim for. My ambition. I want this. I want to give them a life of luxury with my own hands. May God help me and lead me.
And why...am I posting this online?



...Why indeed..

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Monday, 24 September 2007

Geez... Sometimes, it's just hard being me. To a certain degree, I believe people have categorised me as being incapable of releasing happy vibes, or being a tad bit more cheerful than taciturn, and the occasional smile. It brings me great joy that this goes to show how little people bother about understanding me(hey, I've never had a problem with that), but isn't it little too much in accusing me of "acting cute"? I HATE that. I really do. It's as good as saying "you're annoying" without a trace of sarcasm or humor.

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Wait, scratch that. It's a hundred, a biliion ZILLION times worse. I can't really care much if you're annoyed with me(that's YOUR problem), but...when someone so gleefully accuses me of acting cute, it goes waaaaaay beyond what I deem as a friendly(or bordering unfriendly-ness) comment. It's a downright insult. Worse than being called cute. Think I've got weird deifnitions of insults? Shoot me. :P
Geez. It's even worse that I'm listening to a crappy remix version of a song that used to be nice when it WASN'T in a wanna-be disco style. Did I say that I've not much love for robotic types? :\

Hmm... I do sound like one angry girl, don't I? oooops. XD I'm not angry. Just letting my whippish side let it loose a while. It's normal to have many "versions" of you right? :P I'm sure it is, so don't deny it!!! RAWR!!!

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Thursday, 21 June 2007

I'm back home.

Actually, I got back home...last Saturday night?







? What are you doing, still here? You may leave now, dust-people! Thank you for visiting~! *sneezes horribly* omg...what dust.......no wonder I was sort of bedridden the whole day yesterday=.=

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Tuesday, 12 June 2007

ok, finally I'm updating!!! There is so much to tell now XD heheh
Right, first off, I've finished my EXAMS!!!! WHEEE...I don't think I did very well though... >.< ah well... sigh.. T-T

Mm... so, on Monday(yesterday), after the last paper - Law -, we(Jolyn, Julia, Mo Chen, YiChen and I) left for Covent Garden and had a fun day out. We bought some stuff there, and ate and well, had much fun at watching the baskers at work.

And as always, as one is human, I got HUNGRY! SO, we went to this ah...cafe sort of place that was conveniently placed in Covent Garden between the lanes of shops, and I ate this baguette like thing. Chicken flavoured. I too bought a cup of Iced Mochacino, and yum! It was pretty nice(though I still like ice blended coffee, mind you)! So, I was happily eating and indulging in my food. And ever so nicely, as I am a magnet for trouble or ah..bugs, as I have noticed while I am in the UK, and I found this tiny fruit fly like thing on my bread. After removing that daring, audacious blashphemy(leaving it VERY squashed) though not long after, I heard a loud heavy PLONK, and My Very Indulging Iced Mochacino splashed. I looked at it with utmost dread, and was thinking: "Oh, you can't be kidding can you....It shouldn't be...". So, with the world's heaviest dread upon my shoulders, I glanced above my drink. And HORRORS of The Very Utmost Horrors, there stood a gleeful and smug PIDGEON!!! RAWRR!!! =.= I'm sure you get the idea don't you, ladies and gentledusts(sorry, its just too empty here). Oh crap, yea, CRAP! Pure 100% Crap and Mocha!! We made puns(or actually I did. Julia just happened to curse at something, and I reiterated "yea, crap, really crap" or something along the lines). XP

In the end, I(fortunately) got a replacement of the drink, though the mental image still hunts me in my nightmares(you DON'T wanna know=.=). So, leaving the cafe extremely, thoroughly and devastatingly mentally scarred for life, we walked around and blablabla, lets just skip this part ok? Okies~ soooooo we bought tickets for watching Le Miserables at the QUeen's Theatre at the discounted price of 41.50 pounds for the clear view seats. Though the price is undoubtedly high, I felt that every penny paid was worth it. Even though this is the second time I watched it, it still amazes me. I thoroughly enjoyed the play, which successfully pushed everything(yes, EVERYTHING, even that awful crap load of shitty thing) into the very recesses of my mind ^^. I made a point in my mind to watch at least one play every year. For September, Julia and I have kinda made it a promise to watch the Phantom of the Opera on our birthdays(maybe our average birth date).

Hmm.. well...what else is there to say...Hmm..hmmmmmmmm.hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... You know, I have not a scrape of an idea. So, guess what? Have a crappy day!!! See you little dusts not so soon in the far far future!!!

Oh, wait, don't flitter off yet. I have to mention ONE LAST THING! ehem...drum rolls pleaaaase?

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no, you little dusts, not Dust drumming!!!! I can't hear a single sound wave!!!
>.<>.<

Do pardon my lameness,-Tian Ying

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04:52

Monday, 5 March 2007

hm... you know what? I've been doing some thinking these past few days... mmm..... there isn't anyone interested in knowing my life....--->no one reading this blog---> no one reading whatever I say ---> no one KNOWING what I say ---> .... ---> FREEDOM!!! WAHAHHAHAHAH!!!

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okok, don't need to send the lab polices after me... I don't need treatment, seriously!!! I know there are always people watching people blogging, and I *think* I know what I can say or not... Ah well, its 8 minutes away from the next day and seriously, I'm dead tired.. I'm trying to think of any eventful things that transpired today, and other that taggin in Julia's blog just now, I can't really think of much else... Hmm...

Ah well, I'll tell you what you missed out then.

I found archery ranges.
We got the rifling forms for DOE.
I had IELTs test, which I fell asleep in.
I overslept on Sunday(meaning, I didn't go to CHURCH!!! >.<)
We-Julia, Jolyn(HEY! JJ!! JOHOR JAYA! oops... sorry, I think its due to the lack of sleep... paisehpaiseh), and I- went to the Merdeka Rock Musical.
we...... hmm... what else did we do? hmm.... My memory's failing me. sobsob... ah well. that's all folks!

Phew. That sure was tiring! *wipes sweat off my brows* phew!!! now I'm feeling much more up-to-date, so nitenite! WAHAHAHAHA!!! That was a looooooong weekend wasn't it? hehehe. And what an elaborately (albeit its arrangement) detailed post this is!!!! Aren't you amazed? Well then, SHOO!!! byebye! til the next century week, and you might see another post again. (hopefully)

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15:35

Sunday, 25 February 2007

Argghh!! I just realised that after all the effort I put in into correcting some stuuf in the format of the blog, it won't work properly on Windows Explorer and Morzilla Firefox!!! It only works perfectly in CRAZY BROWSER!!!!!! And even as I'm saying this, I wonder how many people go actually "oohh, I think I actually know that!". AHA! Caught you there didn't I? BLEH!!! And those words I wrote down there.... sobs... all...wasted....
Errors in:
Windows Explorer: the words don't go all the way back like in Crazy Browser. Thus the effect I wanted is lost.
Morzilla Firefox: not onyl the words are NOT appearing, but even the scroll colours are back to default, and the song doesn't make an appearance!!!

Sigh... I'm ranting, so you better get used to it. I always rant. Online anyway. hnn... oh, and yes, today, we-Anderson, Jolyn, Julia and I- went to the London Fashion Weekend in corporation with GRAZIA at South Kensington, and what can I say? It was wonderful! There were so many pretties(ahh... too many to decide from...) and I ended up buying only one thing! Oh Julia bought two, and Jolyn none. That's for the girls anyway. We also bought a 4 pound goodie bag which contained 2 magazines, one TONI&GUY hairspray(mine was a refresher shampoo, which I have no inkling as to the usage; just that it sounds useful and you go "whoa...that's cool"), one biscuit, and a purple eyeshadow. Overall, it was pretty much worth it. :)

Whatever we did after that is not much of worth of mention for I do fear that with my monotone writing, it would bore you to eternal damnation ah..sleep :).

Oh, before I let you ask me the question(I FORESAW IT!! WAHAHHAHA), I'll post little photos linking to full versions below here. IF it works that is (hohoho~)


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You know what? I'll post the pictures next time ^^ I'm too lazy occupied right now. ^^ jya ne!

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Saturday, 24 February 2007

Ah... It's so nice when you just have a free day to yourself-like today! We(Julia and I) had nothing on our schedules for today, which simply is a bliss(thank GOD!). We didn't need to go out for any form of meeting, though they may be enjoyable, they are still quite tiring, and for that, I'm grateful to God.

So! I slept in really late today, only waking up at 1.50pm O.O but who cares! I'm going to sleep with a vengeance after sleeping only >4hours a day for the past few days!! WAHAHAHHAH!!! ...ehem. *cough cough* So, we ate stif fried noodles for lunch(and breakfast for me), which tasted...below Asian standards, but for the English standard, I guess you can say it was pretty good... I think what made it bad was that the beef was lacking of the usual marinate that we use at home, thus there was a strong smell that usually comes with tough poultry like beef and pork. If we ignore the beef factor though, I think it was pretty ok.

What did we then do after lunch? We shared the internet of course! I spent alot of time searching for suitable skins and finally stumbled upon a few that I approve of. ^~^ happy!

However, I do think that in a few weeks time, this blog will be simply devoid of any ah...newer news =D. It's really too much of a bother to update regularly. Nyakakakkak!

Hehe, oh and yesterday, I finally signed up for a phone line in O2 under Nic's name (as jolyn dubbed 'papa' hohoho), and I hope to receive the phone by Wednesday!!! My current credit left is 0.17 pounds =D good right?.... Don't look at me like that!! Julia only has 5 pence left!!! That's like 12 pence less than me!!!!! *huffs in indignation*


hmm... but...*throws a stone in the "audience*..............................
..........*conkkkkkk..onk....nk....k....*

....ahhh...what a resounding echo. No one's there. Oh well, I'll just eat my cookies myself. No need to share. Nyakakkakka... Just lil' ol' me by myself... how very comforting....


zzzzz....

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